Separating the concepts of internal and external sourcing seems a little pointless, when we get right down to it. Can we create anything solely from ourselves, without influence from the world we live in? No, because the world is what makes us who we are. Can we create anything solely from experience, without tapping into our own self? No: every thought we think is filtered through our unique perceptions of the world.
I have difficulty pinpointing how I am inspired and influenced, though. It seems the intent of my work, the aesthetics, the narratives all come from different places. One thing I have realized is events and objects don’t inspire me. The experiences I am inspired by tend to be about emotional experience, moods, and moments when my mind slips from reality. I have insomnia, and more and more I am realizing how much this might impact my art aesthetic. That restlessness and metal fog that happens when you haven’t slept for days, and the half-realities that occur the moment you wake up from a dream you don’t remember… it’s those feelings that inspire me. I never remember my dreams, but I always know instinctively they were disturbing. I think this faint awareness is what drives me to always place disturbing undertones in my own work. I never actually draw things from my dreams…but I try to draw the feelings my dreams give me, if that makes sense. That feeling that there’s something lurking beneath the surface.
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I think your insomnia is interesting information that informs your works....
In a way, your work is parallel to second life. You create worlds and inhabitants & spaces of this world. One question I have is how do you delve deeper, create other layers of this world or ask questions of the places & characters you've already created.
Your language, as an artist is very personally inspired obviously. But how do you interrogate and ask questions of this work/world? Basically how are you setting up ways to challenge what you already know what to do?
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